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Thursday, 3 September 2009

The Ability To Empathize With Zombies

Look, I don't mean to be a bore...but perhaps you'll excuse me this...hmm...once? :)

Lately this constant waiting is mind-numbing and as dulling to the senses as a full day spent watching reality television. It leaves this thin gritty veil of tension over every area of life at the moment, work and play are colored with it. A slight, prevailing tension. I am so tired. Physically weary. Emotionally and mentally exhausted. I am not really with you. I am a million miles away...

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

We all feel it. We are all waiting with you! Stay strong!
Kate

jjdelta said...

The joy of the Lord is our strength. In moments of despair turn to Him and He will give you peace that transcends all understanding. Know that through all this the Lord is with you... sometimes holding your hand... sometimes carrying you. When you cry He is crying with you and when you laugh He is laughing with you

I know it's difficult, I actually can't even begin to understand what you're going through but we are all behind you :o)

Stay strong my friend and know that you are loved by your finite friends but also by an infinite God! :o)

Ine said...

I'm hoping for a phone call for you this week!

Colleen said...

Thanks Ine, I really hope there's a call too. It would just be good to see things happening again...
How are you guys holding up lately?

Ine said...

Um, well. How does one hold up? ;) I guess we have no choice but to (pretend to) go one with our everyday life. Every time I think about when the phone will ring, I'm thankful for every second I had forgotten about it all before I got the thought about the phone.. You know what I mean? It's pretty neurotic.

So now I'm just hoping for you guys to get the call so I can relax for a couple of months! Every time there's been a call there's at least to months before another one get's the call. But when there's no call, there can be a call any minute.. or not. *sigh* (I better stop now before I completely go mad.)

(Sorry about the deleted post, it was just bad spelling.)

Colleen said...

Hi Ine, I understand your point so well. Sometimes I feel too like I just wish a call would come (for anyone) because then we could relax for a few months. Ah, I understand sooooo well. I feel right now that really, we can't do anything, go anywhere, like our hands our tied from making all commitments of any sort because the call simply could come any minute.
We had planned to go home to Canada for four weeks in August but we didn't because of that same thing...I kept thinking well, if someone else gets a tildeling, we can go but when we didn't and no one else did, I thought we really can't do both...Canada and Sri Lanka I mean. I don't think we made the wrong decision but still...
Anyway, good to know someone understands. I hope we can all relax a bit soon.

Dawn Bell said...

oh sweetie. just want you to know i am thinking of you today.

Anonymous said...

I get ya!!! I want you to know you are not alone, I too am a mom on the edge, waiting and feeling like a zombie. Waiting for the phone call to say they are going to move her, waiting for the call to say she will live happily ever after with us, waiting on God to make His "big move". I understand and I want you to know that you are stronger, wiser and more faith-filled for it. Reading this journey with you has been so very healing. You are a blessing from God for me. Thank you thank you thank you, and thank God, too!

Meg

Colleen said...

Dawn, thanks so much for keepingus in your thoughts. It is much appreciated!

And Meg, thank so much for sharing that. I can't imagine what you must feel actually having your precious baby girl and yet knowing she could go at any time. Every day must be an incredible excersize in faith and trust for you...thank so much for your encouragement, it's good to know we aren't alone in this. Praying for you and your family too!

Mandy said...

Ena, I just wanted to tell you that I'm watching your blog for that wonderful announcement. I think of you often and cannot wait until you meet your LO(s). :)

Colleen said...

Hi Mandy! Thank you for stopping by...it was a really nice surprise to see a comment from you when I checked my email this morning! It's so encouraging to know you're thinking of us and hoping with us that this will happen soon! I can't wait to announce the big news when it finally happens, although right now I have to admit it feels like it never will!:) Hope all is well with you and your family!